One day more than six years ago I sat to write for five minutes on a Sunday morning. I wrote of this belief I had then which I still have now: my writing was created stream of consciousness style.
I used a prompt based on something from Ralph Waldo Emerson which I translated to this:
You are exactly what the world needs right now: exactly as you are right now.
I wrote for five minutes and when I was done, I sought approval, I needed approval, I was hungry for it.
One difference between the me then and the me now is the me now no longer expects approval. I assume no one will approve or even notice I wrote. This does not mean I don’t want approval. In fact, I have been known to opt out of experiences if I don’t feel included. I’ll just pick up my metaphorical marbles and go home and find someone else who seems to appreciate me.
Both of these facts: the not expecting response and the retreating from experience when I have felt slighted, illustrate my floundering trust in the now much less in the future.
I wonder if that is true for you, too, which is why it bears repeating… and repeating… and repeating….You are exactly what the world needs right now: exactly as you are right now.
I have somehow left my optimism elsewhere and am instead freshly coated with a fresh dose of cynicism. It’s gotten worse this year than I ever thought it would. It seems like our whole society has caught the “snarky” malaise, the angry bickering competitive ugly-ness I have always veered away from and until now have never looked back.
This malaise is detrimental to my health.
Yet here I sit in my dark and quiet living room feeling pangs of hope again.
I love my six-years-ago self. She had so much hope, was so naive even though she had so much pain in her not-so-distant past. Enough of her still reigns in me that I feel another slight tug of optimism.
I won’t assume you will want to read, but it isn’t horrible: i’m not embarrassed about what I wrote. It might even invite a thought my current me wouldn’t think to ask anymore. Maybe it is time for me to intentionally step back into those shoes and slightly less frown-face assumptions. So 2017 readers, meet 2011 Julie.
Note: I wrote one version of this and then my computer ate it. Frustrated anyone? Early on a Sunday morning when my son is hovering like a hawk, waiting for me to take him to one of the city pools which doesn’t open for another ninety minutes when I would much rather be plunked on the porch with my laptop, writing my heart on the page?
So – using my prompt… “You are exactly what the world needs right now: exactly as you are right now.” the 5 minutes may begin…
I wrote this very sincerely and I believe it earnestly yet somehow in between all that rah-rah believe me when I say this thought and love coated eye contact with word-love I heard Billy Joel crooning away, “I love you just the way you are” and my college friends snickering, “So, Billy doesn’t want his woman to improve… would rather keep her in her place so no one else will be attracted to her ever-getting-better nature.”
Now these were the days when Christie Brinkley was either married to Billy Joel or at least involved with him, so I remember 
raising my eyebrows thinking, “Most men would love Christie Brinkley just the way she is, too… absolutely gorgeous and perfect physically.” but I digress yet stay right on course.
The challenge to women (and perhaps men as well) today is we don’t think “as we are” is just right.
Instead, we buy into the cultural, societal notion that we are never good enough. We are always ten pounds from love or this orthat degree away from that job and one or twenty friends short of popular and if we did this or took that course or prescribed to this wonder pill, all would begin to brighten when in reality – if we changed our perspective and our thinking we would realize we ARE exactly what someone needs right now.
Our stories, our experiences, our listening ear, our chocolate chip cookies or hands to help a friend declutter or hold a crying-almost-complete-stranger – you are exactly what someone in this world is waiting for at this precise moment.
Not the next job you.
Not the next house or apartment you.
Not the skinnier or bigger breasted or more educated you.
This exact here and now you.
You are exactly what the world needs right now: exactly as you are right now.
I am writing this while sitting on my sofa in my messy living room. I haven’t taken a shower yet and my hair needs to be touched up. Badly. Yet I sit and write for five minutes (and then this second five after the computer ate my words) because I firmly believe…
I am exactly what the world needs right now, exactly as I am, right now.
Say it now, with me...I am exactly what the world needs right now, exactly as I am, right now.
And the timer went off and I said, very excitedly in my 2011 version me….. There! Ta-Da!
Let me know, please… anything you are thinking after reading these words hot off the tips of my fingers with no editing allowed.
I think the 2011 version of me was onto something very, very good.
I am exactly what the world needs right now, exactly as I am, right now.
You are exactly what the world needs right now, exactly as you are, right now.
We are exactly what the world needs right now, exactly as we are, right now.
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