Covid19 – Creative Life Midwife

This is not a chirpy blog post about how now is the time to get all your long ignored tasks done nor is it a blog post cheerleading now is a time to go to bed until the quarantine is lifted.

This is a blog post that offers you permission to feel whatever you are feeling – and sometimes you may crawl into bed for the day and some days you may get more done in two hours than you did in the last month.

If you look into my recent blog archives you will see it has been a topsy-turvy time for me. I have been angry, I have been sad, I have been excited at times to the point of exhilaration, but mostly I have felt a strong sense of compassion and love and hope hasn’t yet evaporated completely.

Yesterday on Instagram I declared April my month to “Nurture Love for One Another Through Creative Acts of Lovingkindness and Grace.”

I made this (to some seemingly wild) proclamation after I realized how the people who have been participating in the Daily Virtual Coffee Dates I’m holding on Zoom. These provide a given time to show up on the days people are available and would benefit from “being” with other people for Intentional, Connected Conversation.

Women holding mugs of coffee, tea, mocha to represent a "virtual coffee date" held virtually during the 2020 pandemic.

The format is simple: we meet at 1:30 PM Pacific Time daily. At 1:30 we start with introductions – each person sharing their name, where they are “zooming from” geographically, and a simple question that immediately points to similarities between us.

Next, a topic is introduced and we talk about it – each person is given a chance to speak, or not. Each person may show their faces on camera – or not. We laugh and joke and talk with depth and lightness. It is like sitting around a table in a café, sharing ourselves – only we are in a zoom room and may be in Bakersfield, across the US or Canada or even in Europe.

I started this as an experiment. I gave it a week – and then extended it and will continue extending it until people stop wanting to join the conversation or the quarantine ends.

One of the members said, “Even when I am not here with you, it feels comforting knowing you are out there, meeting.”

A member from Sweden said, “We meet around my bedtime, so tonight I thought, ‘Let’s see what they’re talking about today! I was so excited to visit right before my bedtime. I realized, you are all my new friends!”

Overnight one of our members lost a friend to COVID-19 which I imagine will happen more as the disease reaches out, more deeply.

This unlikely space in a Zoom Room is a comforting space for people to be themselves – however they show up – and know lovingkindness, grace and gratitude are waiting.

You are welcome to join us, too. Simply click here to register (the sessions are free.)

Other ways I will Nuture Love in April is by blogging inspiring and true content daily, sharing writing prompts on Instagram,twitter and in my Facebook Writing Group (The Word-Love Writing Community) and Bridge to the New Year – A Personal Growth Group on Facebook.

I will Nurture Love in myself by writing daily, whether that is jotting notes in my notebook, writing poetry, continuing with my daily haiku and taking photos of my daily walks are all ways I am actively able to feel better – as much as I can – and here on my Creative Life Midwife Blog is where you will continue to see evidence of that, daily.

Question: How are you nurturing love for yourself daily?

If you haven’t been nurturing love for yourself lately, what is one tiny way you might do so starting today?

Hint: start with brainstorming a list. Maybe you will include purposefully drinking more water, maybe it will be making your bed every morning when you get out of it, maybe it will be curling your hair or putting on an outfit that makes you feel attractive. Maybe you will journal one sentence today or one paragraph or write a letter to yourself remembering happy moments from the past.

Please know this: you have read this far so I believe something has called you here. Please accept this offer to love yourself with grace, with intentional kindness just a little bit more than you did yesterday.

Build on your intentional kindness toward yourself daily, bit by bit.

I believe in you.

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Julie JordanScott creates content to inspire creative people to lead more satisfying lives even during this pandemic. Walking and sitting at the Panorama Bluffs helps her feel centered.

Julie JordanScott is the Creative Life Midwife. She inspires people to live their life as an artform and then take action towards their best results. Her specialty is writing – her easiest way to express what she does is this: She Coaches. You Write. Your Readers Win! During the 2020 Pandemic she is also leading daily Virtual Coffee Dates, Facilitating Intentional Conversation so people will feel less isolated during this time of social and physical distancing. Follow her across social media to stay informed.

Weekends for me tend to be busier than weekdays and during these days of quarantine, it is not different. I stay where I am and I have the meetings I would have had out and about. I leave my home to write haiku and I come home and I have more meetings.

Earlier today I was so tired I really wanted to opt out of my later-in-the-day meeting but I didn’t. I was actually energized afterwards. Yay me for showing up anyway?

I did some decluttering and purposeful television watching (Little Fires Everywhere) and now, I give myself the gift of a touch of writing before I either make a video or do some decluttering or both.

I look back up and see the graphic I made earlier in the week,a quote. “A word after a word after a word is power,” and I think “She’s right. Margaret Atwood is right.”

What I was feeling before I sat down to write was anger.

I saw a writing prompt and it made me mad.

But I pushed that mad away and pretended it hadn’t existed and allowed the distraction to take center court and then again, “A word after a word after a word is power” so here I am.

I am angry. This unknown is stretching out in front of us with no end in sight is starting to get on my nerves. I can pretend it doesn’t bother me and get all into spiritual mode, but I am afraid to go into grocery stores and I am out of cranberry juice and that makes me feel angry, which highlights my privilege and makes me feel ashamed for getting upset about something like not having cranberry juice when lives are being lost.

Someone is texting me as I write and my phone buzzes. I more than likely don’t want to talk to them (or text with them.) Right now I would like chocolate. I am angry that my default is still chocolate. I am angry I have had a chocolate addiction for almost my entire.

My spiritual better half is whispering in my ear to practice self-forgiveness but my mad as hell and I’m not taking it anymore side is escalating. Clackety clackety clackety up the roller coaster mountain my anger goes…no relief in sight. No relief in sight.

I put my head against the back of the chair and watched videos of my trip to the river this morning. I allowed myself to feel whatever was gurgling up. I stopped feeling angry and remembered I am in control of what I do with my anger.

There may not be the relief I would like to have and there is relief in knowing I have tools like writing, meditation, daily virtual Coffee Date Conversations, music, 27 fling boogies, art journaling, all of it will get me closer to feeling better even if these circumstances continue longer than I might want or like.

“A Word after a word after a word is power,” says Margaret Atwood.

My words, “I have the ability to process. I gain strength daily. I have the resources I need to get through this just like I’ve gotten through many other setbacks along the way.”

Grace flows because my heart knows – a word after a word after a word is power.

AFFIRMATION TO USE:

“Grace flows because my heart knows “A word after a word after a word is power.”

Writing prompt:

Right now I feel…… (write without editing or judgement. End your writing with 5 gratitudes and the affirmation, “Grace flows because my heart knows – a word after a word after a word is power.”