I have been waiting for my facebook memories to cue me, to invite me into the memory – to recognize – to be alert that five years ago my hospital stay began.
It was the day of my first gratitude list from the hospital where I filled people in on what was going on with me:
The pneumonia wasn’t getting better, so I’m now tucked away in a downtown Bakersfield hospital. I’ve slept for 12 of the last 15 hours after an 18 hour wait on a gurney in the hallway of the ER.
I’m grateful:
1. For patient phlebotomists who are willing to take their time chasing down my shy veins.
2. For Michelle and Julia who have visited and brought Emma with them. This is stressful for her, too. Last night she was very helpful.
3. For technology that brings my favorite relaxation music into the hospital with me.
4. For Miracle Mark Tarango who lit up the ER with his presence yesterday.
If you are in Bakersfield and would like to visit, please text or pm me to find out where I am. I may not be super interactive, and it would be great to see you. Prayers from everywhere are welcome.
The 2024 me is finding the conscious collection and curation of these memories to be fascinating. The self-compassion is infinite now, the me-who-was-in-the-experience was trying hard… and was more than slightly miserable.. was definitely doing her best and taking things one moment at a time.
Today I am going to be putting finishing touches on The Muse Method Project and in my breaks from that, I am going to do some meditative time travel back into my 2019 self in this experience.
I am brave enough. I am ready to step into the full depths of this healing, just as I am ready to complete The Muse Method.
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Thank you, Amanda! I appreciate your visit and comment!
That sounds like a scary time for you 5 years ago but isn’t it wonderful how we can fine gratitude in trying times? I always knew you were brave from all your blogs I’ve read.
Thank you, Martha. One foot in front of the other. right?
It sounds like you’ve been through so much and have come a long way in your healing journey since then. Reflecting on that time must bring up so many emotions, and I applaud you for focussing on the positive.
Looking back with an open heart and tender self-compassion is a step I needed to take, even if it makes me uncomfortable. Thanks for commenting so kindly.
Wonderful reflection on a challenging time!
I’m intrigued with your mention of the Muse Method – I work with Intentional Creativity – inviting folks to connect with their muse using creativity as their vehicle!
I’ll be teaching level one Reiki at the end of the month, and we’ll do a creative project as part of the workshop.
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It’s not always easy to find things you’re grateful for during tough times, but, as I’m sure you know, what a difference it can make in our lives.
Your post brought up so much emotion as I reflecting on my healing journey. Good luck your project. I wish you much success. I look forward to following your continued journey. Blessings to you for sharing.
Thank you, Cheryl. Means a lot to know my words held meaning and emotion for you.