Sunday Stream of Consciousness – Creative Life Midwife

We will store this in the file drawer marked “What people don’t talk about much” – perhaps this is a series that is calling to be written.

Sometimes self-care, for me, is dogged productivity. Diving my nose into a project intensely and slogging through it feels better than almost anything I can imagine. It creates a deeper, more resonant satisfaction than almost any of the traditional “self-care” suggestions offered by many of my beloved friends.
I am ashamed of admitting this, I almost don’t want to say it for fear of being cast out of any remotely inner circle I might be a part of because if 2018 had a theme other than the one I set it is “We don’t want you” and “You don’t belong here.”
In actuality, my theme for 2018 was/is freedom and allowing myself to be cast out is actually freeing. I just need to move further along the grief path so I don’t ache with each interaction with people I used to call my friends.
There are people waiting to love you, and me, and those people who have hurt you and me. There are people waiting to be loved, fully, and who would be so thrilled to be invited for a cup of coffee or a walk or a conversation deeper than what is currently the latest celebrity sensation or the unfortunate state of (insert a myriad of subjects here,)
We are all bigger – our hearts and our visions for this world – than whatever bump in the road you are currently knocking up against.

This has been a stream-of-consciousness moment on a Sunday evening. I will get back to my trademark Sunday Loving Activities and offer to you this chance to think about whatever it is you aren’t talking about openly that might help you to feel better by giving it some attention.

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Stream of Consciousness Sunday used to be a normal part of my Sunday Morning. Various bloggers I knew started them up and off our words ran, five minutes at a time, and was actually a sort of conduit or foreshadowing for #5for5BrainDump. This morning as I prepare to start another week long adventure in #5for5 I decided to clear my head with some freewriting.

Here is what came from it letting my words loose without any forethought or edting. Just writing. No wrongs, simply words on the page, writing.

“Don’t spend time beating on a wall, hoping to transform it into a door. ”
Coco Chanel

I listen to fiddles and classic energetic celtic music.

Emma was frightened by the binaural beats music last night and I didn’t want to frighten her. I am writing in my corner, in my recliner, in a position I haven’t used for months. It feels good.

I sat to write about how to use my time most productively today.

I don’t want to waste it: time that is. Emma comes back and starts to do a contra dance, by herself, and I am glad she is happy, because when she isn’t happy I get plugged in and start feeling miserable, too. I thought of going to church but on this day – oddly enough – I want to stay home.

Katherine is preaching today, or more accurately did preach. She is seeking a position with a church 3,000 miles away from me. I wish I was closer. Her husband is most likely preaching in his church, separate from her and she is comfortable with this. I don’t know that I would be I so value the presence and applause from those closest to me.

(This is a weakness of mine – this chronic hunger for approval and something I have been working on in rewriting my narrative.)

Back to the question.

Time. Best use of. Not beating on walls thinking beating on a wall will make a door appear because it won’t unless it does. Like turning a wardrobe into a forest or a candlestick into a guy named Lumiere who lightens up the darkness.

Best use of time: focus on planning for the week and cleaning up messes still left from last week.

I see a man jog by my house, he is slightly off focus, looking at something in my neighbors yard.

I had two dreams early this morning that are slightly distracting me but not.

My five minutes are up.

Lumiere, lighten my wall banging and ask my dreams to settle in behind my conscious thoughts so I can simultaneously collaborate with them while I get my tasks ticked off my list.

Amen and amen. So be it and yes.

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