What truth am I ready to tell?
I feel increased frustration. Why did I write this prompt?
Why did I decide to write from it first instead of offering it to other people first?
How am I supposed to even begin talking (or) writing (or) be willing to be vulnerable enough to take this one in any decent narrative?
Right in that moment I wanted to shut down completely, but something jostled me so I finally stop worrying about narrative or getting it right or anything except filling the five minutes with the tapping on the keyboard.
Five minutes on the timer and… write. I started with something easy to address, something obvious.
I am ready to tell the truth… I am happier with my hair colored than when I was attempting to grow it into its natural state.
Maybe if I hadn’t gotten sick I would be rushing back to going grey/white again but I simply feel more bright spirited with my hair the color it is now – I actually feel more freedom to experiment with it again.
In all honesty, the only thing I liked about my grey adventure was the whitest part of my hair and the purple streak Jolie painted into my hair every time I visited her.
Other than that, I felt pretty hideous about my appearance most if not all of the time. I stopped looking at myself in mirrors. It certainly didn’t help with the overall malaise I was feeling.
I am not ready to tell the full truth of my near-death experience in October. Recently I found myself quite willing to tell one friend more details than normal. That was a surprise and actually felt optimistic and eye-opening.
I am ready to tell the truth of my anger about some of what I observe in special education. I am ready to tell the truth (with some changed names) in the book I am finally editing – again.
Again, more truth tumbles out: when I reviewed the last edits, I will tell you the truth that version of me had it a lot of it wrong. J Sometimes when editing, our true writing voice gets sucked dry. That’s not what this book is about, especially.
This book is messy and tired and frustrated and ebullient.
I am ready to tell the truth – and grow in my ability to share what I feel and know and think – without fear of retribution and abandonment.
Truthfully, I am stronger to face both of those because I have experienced both abandonment and retribution and discovered through the process I am bolder and more resilient than I could have ever known without them.
Five minutes later – time is up and I feel infinitely better than I did when I sat down to write.
What a joy!
And now it is your turn to write:
- What truth are you ready to tell right now?
- Start with an “easy” truth if you have any hesitation, like I did with my grey hair. You might start with “I don’t like broccoli” or “I love watching the Bachelor.
- Keep writing until the five minutes are up.
- Allow yourself to follow the flow of the pencil (or pen or fingers on the keyboard). They will take the writing where it needs to go.
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